Sometimes Silver Linings are Blue

Sorry Not Sorry

The Comfort of the Massacre

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I penned my first poem when I was 7 years old. I found it a few years ago, stuck in-between pages in a book of my mothers. The paper tattered almost unrecognizable, but I knew the words by heart. I wrote about a morning that changed the course of my life. I was living with evil. Even so, that morning was when the outside world began to know my inside life.

I can still taste metal from the presence of blood. I see the butcher knives stabbed into the walls. I still envision the words written in blood. Yet, the most vivid memory was the song playing on the radio… Oh, how that song can make me shiver…

I always find silver linings in all my challenges. Several silver linings emerged from this battle. My brother survived and he is a true inspiration. I also discovered my love of writing. Pen and paper have been my constant ally.

Life is beautiful, even in the midst of tragedies.

Look between the lines, read between the words.

I’m impressed with my 7 year old self…

Knife”

you walk in 

see your kin

dead on the floor 

when you open the door

you back up 

tears filling in a cup

seeing the knife 

that took your brother’s life 


Carisa

  

I’m the little blonde girl ❤️

The song playing on the radio that morning, now is on my playlist.

I tend to take negatives and make positives: )

There is one verse that still gives me goosebumps..

Abracadabra, I’m wanna reach out and grab ya….

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76 thoughts on “The Comfort of the Massacre

  1. Wow. I don’t have many words to respond adequately, but just want to make this minor observation: Even as a young girl you discovered that writing is one powerful way you have to process and deal with what happens. I think that’s wonderful, and have found that it helps me as well. Thanks for sharing this.

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    • Matt, your words are more than adequate : ) Thank you for sharing them with me.

      I always feel so vulnerable when I post something that may make some feel uncomfortable. Yet, I know posting these things are more for me than anyone else.
      So I thank you for taking the time to comment with honesty and sincerity.
      Thank you! Thank you!

      Writing has been my guardian angel..
      I can tell you have the same guardian angel ❤️

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  2. J.T.O'Sullivan on said:

    Your talent seems to have stemmed from a young age, now look how remarkably skilled you have become with the ‘online pen’.

    I am curious as to the story that caused you to write such a poem but, I understand if you are not happy to explain it.

    Regardless,

    It is a brilliant piece Carisa ❤

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    • Joshua, you always have a way of making me blush with your compliments. I never feel deserving… But feel so honored you think so : ) ❤️
      The events that took place that morning were years in the making. As a little girl I thought my life was normal. I didn’t know any different..but I knew I didn’t like it.

      I feel everyone has trials and tribulations at some point in their life. I have always been hesitant to talk about mine because I know of others who have not made it out alive. I’m so blessed to be among the living. : )
      Since you asked about that day… I will start to write about it… It may take me awhile to hit publish.. But I promise to try : )
      Much love you to you! ❤️

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      • J.T.O'Sullivan on said:

        You deserve every compliment Carisa ❤

        We do all have our trials through life but, it is how you progress and the decisions you make in the future that determine what kind of person you will be ❤

        I will be waiting by patient candlelight as ever 🙂

        And to you ❤

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  3. Carisa, you are a creative genius. Please use your powers for Good!

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  4. thefeatheredsleep on said:

    You’re incredible

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  5. Wow. My tragedy at age 4 was different, but forever changed my life and shattered my innocence. Writing has always been my way of healing the hurt. At the time, I was too young to write, so I drew instead, sometimes of the event. You are very talented and I do believe what you say is true: there is always a silver lining and even bad can be made into good.

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  6. This is powerful. You are so brave and fearless to open yourself up in such a poignant way.

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  7. 7 years old!!!! Carisa, it’s awesome. It has so much depth for a young girl. Brilliant 🙏❤️

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  8. You’ve every right to be impressed.

    Mind-blowing stuff.

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  9. As a seven year old, I would have pulled the covers over my head and hoped everything that was bad went away. Your bravery came at an early age, and persists to this day. It’s wonderful to read your formative writing, and find comfort that the little blonde girl in the photo still lives a life of silver linings to this day. 💗

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  10. Powerful! write.

    Your poem is magnificent! and speaks in the truthful form. 🙂

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  11. Very amazing talent. I would also love to hear about that day if you are ever ready. I know it would be hard so if it happens we will be here for support!

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  12. Amazing. I’m glad you kept that poem!

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  13. These are the kind of things we want to tell ourselves aren’t really happening. No words could express my level of empathy for you, as that precious little girl, and now. Sending an infinite amount of love your way.
    Hugs,
    Suzanne

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  14. rubiredsaid on said:

    Why do I get the creeps when I read this?
    Memories in childhood do stay with you!

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  15. Woah, Carisa!! Honestly I’m at loss of words to explain my feelings right now. I can relate with the childhood trauma/tragedies. I’ve had numerous one’s throughout. Maybe not significant to others but they are and probably always will be to me. I can relate with the effects, the scars, the silver linings even…

    That poem is mind-blowing least to say and I’m at awe with your strength and all the love you contain within your beautiful heart. Big bear hugs for you ❤

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    • I was taking about you yesterday❤️
      Saying how everything you write means so much to me. I’m always wearing a smile when I read your comments. You’re an amazing young lady. I know we live in different lands, but the language of love, compassion, and friendship is all the same.
      I’m sure you’ve lived through many tragedies I couldn’t comprehend. I’m sorry about anything tragic happening to you. I don’t know what they are, but I know things have happened. You’re so compassionate and wise for your tender age. I admire you much.
      Thank you for always saying the words everyone wants to hear.
      You are my amazing friend who I love dearly ❤️

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  16. I started about the same age and got put on hold by life and lack of inspiration. Now it’s a Teeter Totter… —Smile—

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  17. Carisa! It’s both a boon and a bane to look/ observe things closely.

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  18. Dr. Suess-Zues Zen on said:

    Great pic, has the look I remember from the late 70’s early 80’s childhood. Abracadabra, I remember a small black record, a .45 I guess, playing on my brothers record player, this song. Seemed very cool.

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  19. You write so beautifully, With love Maxima

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  20. I’m glad you are able to use such a tramatic experience as such a powerful tool for the rest of your life.

    I’m sorry you had to go through that.

    Writing is the most powerful force behind dealing with tramatic events, for me.

    Thank you for sharing this.

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  21. Amazing piece of writing. Even more amazing to think you were seven. I am so impressed with your work. Carisa you were blessed with talent. Never stop writing. Can I be your number one fan if you don’t already have one.

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  22. wafflemethis on said:

    That is such an adorable photo Carisa and what a talent you had even at 7y/o. Amazing❤

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