I penned my first poem when I was 7 years old. I found it a few years ago, stuck in-between pages in a book of my mothers. The paper tattered almost unrecognizable, but I knew the words by heart. I wrote about a morning that changed the course of my life. I was living with evil. Even so, that morning was when the outside world began to know my inside life.
I can still taste metal from the presence of blood. I see the butcher knives stabbed into the walls. I still envision the words written in blood. Yet, the most vivid memory was the song playing on the radio… Oh, how that song can make me shiver…
I always find silver linings in all my challenges. Several silver linings emerged from this battle. My brother survived and he is a true inspiration. I also discovered my love of writing. Pen and paper have been my constant ally.
Life is beautiful, even in the midst of tragedies.
Look between the lines, read between the words.
I’m impressed with my 7 year old self…
“Knife”
you walk in
see your kin
dead on the floor
when you open the door
you back up
tears filling in a cup
seeing the knife
that took your brother’s life
Carisa
I’m the little blonde girl ❤️
The song playing on the radio that morning, now is on my playlist.
I tend to take negatives and make positives: )
There is one verse that still gives me goosebumps..
Abracadabra, I’m wanna reach out and grab ya….
76 thoughts on “The Comfort of the Massacre”
matt
Wow. I don’t have many words to respond adequately, but just want to make this minor observation: Even as a young girl you discovered that writing is one powerful way you have to process and deal with what happens. I think that’s wonderful, and have found that it helps me as well. Thanks for sharing this.
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Carisa Adrienne
Matt, your words are more than adequate : ) Thank you for sharing them with me.
I always feel so vulnerable when I post something that may make some feel uncomfortable. Yet, I know posting these things are more for me than anyone else.
So I thank you for taking the time to comment with honesty and sincerity.
Thank you! Thank you!
Writing has been my guardian angel..
I can tell you have the same guardian angel ❤️
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J.T.O'Sullivan
Your talent seems to have stemmed from a young age, now look how remarkably skilled you have become with the ‘online pen’.
I am curious as to the story that caused you to write such a poem but, I understand if you are not happy to explain it.
Regardless,
It is a brilliant piece Carisa ❤
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Carisa Adrienne
Joshua, you always have a way of making me blush with your compliments. I never feel deserving… But feel so honored you think so : ) ❤️
The events that took place that morning were years in the making. As a little girl I thought my life was normal. I didn’t know any different..but I knew I didn’t like it.
I feel everyone has trials and tribulations at some point in their life. I have always been hesitant to talk about mine because I know of others who have not made it out alive. I’m so blessed to be among the living. : )
Since you asked about that day… I will start to write about it… It may take me awhile to hit publish.. But I promise to try : )
Much love you to you! ❤️
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J.T.O'Sullivan
You deserve every compliment Carisa ❤
We do all have our trials through life but, it is how you progress and the decisions you make in the future that determine what kind of person you will be ❤
I will be waiting by patient candlelight as ever 🙂
And to you ❤
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Bad Wolf
Carisa, you are a creative genius. Please use your powers for Good!
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Carisa Adrienne
I’m humbled beyond words ❤️
Thank you! You’re words make me smile so big!
The only way to use your powers, are for good, right!? 😉
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Sabiscuit
I believe you are using your powers for good, already. I love your sense of adventure and the thrilling images you present with your work. x
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Carisa Adrienne
Bless you!! ❤️❤️❤️
You’ve made me feel so loved! Thank you!!!
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thefeatheredsleep
You’re incredible
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Carisa Adrienne
I’m completely humbled, Candice. Thank you for your kind words.
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Laura
Wow. My tragedy at age 4 was different, but forever changed my life and shattered my innocence. Writing has always been my way of healing the hurt. At the time, I was too young to write, so I drew instead, sometimes of the event. You are very talented and I do believe what you say is true: there is always a silver lining and even bad can be made into good.
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Carisa Adrienne
Laura, I’m so sorry you’ve had tragedies in your life. It’s so intense when it happens to us when we are young. However, I do believe it makes us stronger as adults. (((((Hugs)))))
You and I get each other so much because we both believe in silver linings.
There is always.. Always one ❤️❤️❤️
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Laura
It definitely does. And more compassionate to the suffering of others.
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Carisa Adrienne
You took the words right out of my mouth! Yes! Always compassionate to others❤️
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Tosha Michelle
This is powerful. You are so brave and fearless to open yourself up in such a poignant way.
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you, Tosha! I’ve never felt I am worthy of such words.. But thank you for making me feel I am ❤️
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Tosha Michelle
I know how you feel. I’ve always struggled with feeling good enough. I finally came to the realization that I alone define my worth and who I want to be. Now understanding this is one thing, however, it’s a bit harder to put it into practice.. 🙂
You are a fantastic writer and a wonderful human being. Own it, as they say. xo
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you, Tosha! You are the kindest person! ❤️
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Tosha Michelle
You’re welcome. Happy Monday
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persoinpoesia2015
7 years old!!!! Carisa, it’s awesome. It has so much depth for a young girl. Brilliant 🙏❤️
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Carisa Adrienne
You are becoming more and more endearing to me! Thank you for being the best man! Love you dearly!
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persoinpoesia2015
Wow. This just blew my mind and swelled my heart. Thank You cara Carisa
Love and Hugs back 🙏❤️
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Carisa Adrienne
: )
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Julian Beach
You’ve every right to be impressed.
Mind-blowing stuff.
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Carisa Adrienne
You are so kind ❤️. Thank you, Julian : )
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Julian Beach
😇
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The V-Pub
As a seven year old, I would have pulled the covers over my head and hoped everything that was bad went away. Your bravery came at an early age, and persists to this day. It’s wonderful to read your formative writing, and find comfort that the little blonde girl in the photo still lives a life of silver linings to this day. 💗
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Carisa Adrienne
So kind and heartfelt, Rob! Thank you!
I think I was braver when I was little..than I am now.
Children are more resilient than adults. I miss her at times. : )
Thank you for always showing your support and love ❤️
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The V-Pub
Thank you for being you. 💗
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charliezero1.wordpress.com
Powerful! write.
Your poem is magnificent! and speaks in the truthful form. 🙂
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Carisa Adrienne
Ahhh.. Love you! Love you so! : ) ❤️
Thank you!!
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charliezero1.wordpress.com
You welcome.
P.S I posted a heart-felt poem…and its a side of me that no one has ever read or experience. Hope you like it…its based on a true story about what I went through as a victim of bullying.
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Carisa Adrienne
Oooohhhhh! I’ll check it out! Gotta get by boy and will check as soon as I get back! : )
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Lynz Real Cooking
Very amazing talent. I would also love to hear about that day if you are ever ready. I know it would be hard so if it happens we will be here for support!
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you, Lynz! I find you so endearing. ❤️Thank you for your love and support. I will do my best ; )
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Lynz Real Cooking
I do not know what happened in your life, but I have found a place here to share, I am unable to tell most things, I can’t do it not now, but people accept whatever I can share! so it really helps. but it has to be right for you! :)))
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you for your insight! You are so wise! ❤️
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Lynz Real Cooking
🙂
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Poet Rummager
Amazing. I’m glad you kept that poem!
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you: ). Such kind and humbling words! Thank you!!
I’m so glad it was kept too! ❤️
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Suzanne
These are the kind of things we want to tell ourselves aren’t really happening. No words could express my level of empathy for you, as that precious little girl, and now. Sending an infinite amount of love your way.
Hugs,
Suzanne
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rubiredsaid
Why do I get the creeps when I read this?
Memories in childhood do stay with you!
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Carisa Adrienne
Yes! They do! But we can learn to see the silver linings : )
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rubiredsaid
Apologies for late reply, I’ve not been well so forgive me!
You’re a very |”together”, person!
I still had to read that and other things along my travels, but as I said, the creeps came into it for me!
Hope you and boys are fine.
Best wishes!
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lifeconfusions
Woah, Carisa!! Honestly I’m at loss of words to explain my feelings right now. I can relate with the childhood trauma/tragedies. I’ve had numerous one’s throughout. Maybe not significant to others but they are and probably always will be to me. I can relate with the effects, the scars, the silver linings even…
That poem is mind-blowing least to say and I’m at awe with your strength and all the love you contain within your beautiful heart. Big bear hugs for you ❤
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Carisa Adrienne
I was taking about you yesterday❤️
Saying how everything you write means so much to me. I’m always wearing a smile when I read your comments. You’re an amazing young lady. I know we live in different lands, but the language of love, compassion, and friendship is all the same.
I’m sure you’ve lived through many tragedies I couldn’t comprehend. I’m sorry about anything tragic happening to you. I don’t know what they are, but I know things have happened. You’re so compassionate and wise for your tender age. I admire you much.
Thank you for always saying the words everyone wants to hear.
You are my amazing friend who I love dearly ❤️
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lifeconfusions
Awwh Carisa, wow!! ❤ I seriously can’t express enough how your words mean so much. Thank you for saying all that and I’m so so glad that we have connected. I adore you dearly! Thank you so much again! Love ya loads ❤ ❤ ❤
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Carisa Adrienne
Me too : ) ❤️
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ThePower&TheG
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Carisa Adrienne
Ahhh.. Thank you for thinking of me: )
I will get on it : )
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booguloo
I started about the same age and got put on hold by life and lack of inspiration. Now it’s a Teeter Totter… —Smile—
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you for sharing : ) so glad you started writing again! : )
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Vikas Chandra
Good one
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you! You’re so kind, Vikas!
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Vikas Chandra
Most welcome Dear
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Kabir Malik
Carisa! It’s both a boon and a bane to look/ observe things closely.
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Carisa Adrienne
Everyone’s got a cross to bear don’t they.
I’m just glad I’ve found a way to express myself. ❤️ thank you my friend.
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Kabir Malik
Yes! Carisa, I second you.
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Dr. Suess-Zues Zen
Great pic, has the look I remember from the late 70’s early 80’s childhood. Abracadabra, I remember a small black record, a .45 I guess, playing on my brothers record player, this song. Seemed very cool.
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Carisa Adrienne
Simpler times it seemed ❤️
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Maxima
You write so beautifully, With love Maxima
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Carisa Adrienne
Your compliment on this post means so much to me. Thank you! It’s such a personal post that was hard to write.
Thank you for making me feel less vulnerable. : )
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Eric Syrdal
I’m glad you are able to use such a tramatic experience as such a powerful tool for the rest of your life.
I’m sorry you had to go through that.
Writing is the most powerful force behind dealing with tramatic events, for me.
Thank you for sharing this.
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you, Eric. I agree I think writing is very therapeutic. I stopped writing as much when I became a mother. Over the last year I have started writing again.
It truly has helped me get thru some difficult times. I’m so glad our blogs have connected. I respect your opinion. Thank you : )
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Eric Syrdal
I’m so glad we’ve met too! You are a great writer! Keep on writing!!!
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you! You’re amazing!
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thelonelyauthorblog
Amazing piece of writing. Even more amazing to think you were seven. I am so impressed with your work. Carisa you were blessed with talent. Never stop writing. Can I be your number one fan if you don’t already have one.
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Carisa Adrienne
My cheeks are actually going to start hurting from smiling so much! : ) In all honesty your words on this piece mean so much to me. It’s so personal to me. Next to my boys writings this one feels I exposed my actual heart for all to hold. Thank you! I think slots for my number one fan are still open! 🙂 Question is..what slots do you have open for your fans!? Pen me in for the next available number!
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thelonelyauthorblog
Hahaha. So much talent and funny too. That is not fair, leave some talent for the rest of us. We will inspire, motivate, and support each other. Great pleasure getting to know you. I will read more later this week.
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Carisa Adrienne
Deal 🙂 Lol!
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wafflemethis
That is such an adorable photo Carisa and what a talent you had even at 7y/o. Amazing❤
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Carisa Adrienne
Thank you, Rich! That makes me smile. 🙂 ❤️
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wafflemethis
☺😘❤
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Carisa Adrienne
😉❤️
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Carisa Adrienne
🙂
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